Ah, so 'tis Christmastime and 'Joy to the World' and all that jazz. I cannot fathom why I cannot seem to feel merry or jolly this holiday season. Perhaps it is because I look around and all I seem to see are people hurting others at every turn in life. Doing their damndest for themselves and what they want while so many others are suffering needlessly. I find myself very meloncholy. So much so that I cannot find the motivation to write. So I suppose my page here will stay blank for a while longer. My apologies to everyone for being such a colossal bore.
In my personal life, my relationship with my fiancee has ended. Yet again. The jury is still out on whether or not she and I will rekindle our romance for the dozenth time or finally let the flame completely burn out. Knowing us, however, I'm fairly certain we will try to make another go of it once more. If that fails, as it undoubetedly will as it has so many times in the past, we will more than likely try again. And Again. And again. Such is life and love I suppose. You can love a person with all your being and yet, there are times when you could choke them and scream at the rafters for them to just go away and let you be. But then, after a time, lonliness sets in and you find yourself longing for them to return. They are the joy and the Hell to you. In essence, everything. As she is to me. Even though those times I cannot stand her occur, the times without her are bleak.
Ah, I grow tedious I'm sure. Forgive me again for spouting nonsense. It is not my aim to depress this Christmas. I simply wish to send you all a message:

Love. Love with your whole heart and your whole being. Not just yourselves, but everyone. Not just for Christmas, but for everyday of your life. Then it is no waste.

Merry Christmas, Every One.